I am so sorry, Sharon, that you are left with these feelings of uncertainty.
I wish I had the answers regarding the post mortom.....perhaps they still have tests that need to be determined that take some time to come back and until then they must tell you things are inconclusive??
I would imagine that it might be so much easier for you to have some type of closure in terms of his cause of death so that you can move forward with your grief if you were to have the answers that you so seek and I pray that somehow you may get them within the 10 weeks that they are speaking about perhaps even sooner.
And like JJ already said, perhaps the clot that was a problem had dislodged and led to your son's death.
As far as feeling numb, that is how I felt with my losses.....I felt as if the world was moving ahead while I was stuck in one spot barely able to do anything. Looking back on it, I don't even remember half of what went on at the funerals of my dear brother and mom, I did what I had to do but I don't even remember who was there and many particulars looking back on it now.
Be gentle with yourself, as I explained in my last post to you, it is sooo difficult for a parent to lose a child.
I think that what my dear mom experienced in the loss of my brother led to her own passing......she had no health problems prior to her diagnosis of biliary cancer and she was gone within 2 months of them diagnosing her.
So PLEASE take care of yourself so that you can be there for your family who have already endured a great loss.
Sending you some hugs and hoping that you will get the answers that you seek.
You obviously are a wonderful mom who did everything to help your son. He was lucky to have such a loving and caring mom in his life like you.
Take care of yourself and know that you are not alone.
((((HUGS))))) ~ Ivory