I am sorry that you have to deal with the pain of losing both of your brothers. I lost one of my brothers last year. It has been a very difficult road for me. I have not taken any medication, so I cannot give any information on that..however if you haven't yet, I would suggest grief counselling. Having someone to talk to at least once a week or so will really help you talk about how you are feeling and ways to address your emotions. I hoep this journey becomes easier for you. It takes time.