lost my dad 3 months ago
I'm not really sure how to go about posting on here. I'm not even sure if this is the right thing to do. But I do know I needed to talk and vent somehow. So I'm hoping this will help me get some things out.
I am a 21-year-old college student. But I was still 20 when my dad died. And I guess he was actually my grandfather, but he adopted me when I was four, and raised me as his daughter. Therefore, I really lost my grandfather and dad on the same day. But I don't want anyone thinking he was older or that he had been sick. He was only 62, and this was completely unexpected. He had an aortic aneurysm.
I've dreamt about him on almost a weekly basis, sometimes more, sometimes less. I feel like I'm in absolute denial because I hold onto these dreams to keep him alive. He died June 30, it's October 10, and I still wonder if there's any way he can come back. Just for a short while.
I'm also really irritated that everyone keeps telling me I'm going to be fine, that it's really my grandmother/mom I should be worried about. Don't they understand this is really hard for me, too?