My mother passed away suddenly
On Monday, I woke up to get my kids off to school and heard my dad yelling at my mom to get up. I went back, and there she was, just lying in bed the way she always does when she's asleep. She'd had a massive heart attack in her sleep and just...went.
I can't shake those few seconds. My dad sobbing and saying, "She's dead." And her just lying there in her nightgown, arm behind her head, the TV on, her heating blanket going full bore (she was always cold).
My kids and I moved back in with my parents after my husband and I started a divorce, about 7 months ago. I went from being a housewife to a full-time worker. My mom watched my kids everyday while I was at work/commuting, 6AM to 8PM.
She and my dad were married for 29 years. They just had their anniversary in September.
Her death has left such an enormous hole in our lives that I don't even know how to grieve. Over the last 2 days, I've had these episodes of extreme grief then I push them away so I don't lose it. And my poor father...he's just lost.
Thanks for reading. Sometimes, you just need to share.