Can't Grieve - Survivor's Guilt
My brother was murdered in 1990 and I happened to witness it.
From 2000-2005 I seemed to have things under control.
In late 2005,I got into an accident which wasn't my fault and the driver of the truck lied and the "witness" he conjured also did.
Since this accident,i've been feeling utterly guilty for surviving,when my brother didn't.
The two attackers ran right past me and had every opportunity to stab me,as I was frozen from the shock of it all.
Just can't seem to close those flood gates.
When in doubt, post it out.