Cousin just commited suicide.
I was never close to my cousin, I barely knew him infact but for some reason this is really hurting :/.
On friday night I found out that my cousin had hung himself on thursday. It may sound horrible but I really did hardly know him, hadn't seen him since I was very young (17 now). For some reason though I feel very upset about this, I feel guilty, like if I'd have known that he had felt bad enough to do that I could have helped. I feel bad for my dad and for my uncle who knew him well and who are really hurt by this. I feel bad for not knowing him like I should of done, he was my cousin, I see his dad a lot, so why not him, I just never thought. I guess the worst part is that I have (don't anymore) had thoughts of ending my own life, I just wish I had known about him feeling the same, we may not have been close but he was family, someone in my family could have understood and more importantly, I could of understood him, maybe thats all he would have needed? I don't know, I don't even know why he did it.
Sorry if none of that makes sense, just I dunno, had to get it out I suppose.