Re: please help
I also send my sincere condolences. Losing your mother is something none of us are every ready for. I lost my mother to a freak accident, and then my father died of a broken heart 30 days later.
To think your mother had fought so courageously against the cancer and had progressed with the treatment must make it all the harder. To think all the trust we put into the medical community, and then to have it fail you is simply heartbreaking. Only when looking back can we see the obvious.
My mother died after 23 days of agony. Not to mention the agony of seeing her every day, which was enough for my father to loose it three days after she died. He had never imagined she would not make it, and once it sunk in, we lost him too. He went into a delirious state, stopped eating and simply died exactly 30 days later. All I got out of it was the purity of their love for each other. It was a love story that lasted to death do us part. All I can take from all this is that it was their time. It was not about me, or any of us.
Perhaps your mother was spared from pain and suffering. I hope so. Not to say that she did not suffer with all the treatments she had already, but maybe the future for her would have been worse. I don't know, and I do not want to upset you further, it just seems like we have to imagine the bigger plan.
I hope this brings some comfort to you. All of us who have lost our mothers, our fathers, any loved ones, we are all connected in our grief and losses. I believe getting our feelings out is so important, and is so helpful. Please share more about your dear mother if you would like. WE are here to help.