I'm falling apart. He was 67 and had been diagnosed with lung cancer the July before. I'm so angry. I've held it together until now, being strong for my Mom, my kids, for everyone else. I feel so damn alone. I don't know. My feelings are such a complicated mess right now. I'm feeling sad, cheated, and a bit sorry for myself, which is going to get me no where. I just need to get this out and this seemed like a safe place
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The following user gives a hug of support to NSANMOM24: angelwish (10-02-2012)
I'm very glad that you shared. I'm so sorry for your loss, I know it's hard.
I think it's very natural for feelings to be complicated right now. I lost my Dad last year,
and mine are too. Hang in there, and share away. Let this be a safe place for you.
I am so sad for this. I hope your family is behaving well. This can be a cause sometimes. Is there a family feud, or just feel cheated by his being taken from you so soon, I wonder. I know that anger is a natural part of grief.
Did you read about the stages of grief?
Thank you Slenderella,
I appreciate your words. It feels good to know other people have been there and made it through. It is such a rollercoaster...good day, week of bad days, good day, etc. etc. I try to keep it all together for my Mom, but at home it all comes out. Again, thank you
Angelwish, I think your post showed up in the wrong thread, LOL.
Please give yourself permission to feel all of those messy complicated emotions. It is normal to feel this way for now. The hard part - for me, sometimes is trying to keep it all together for everyone else in all situations. Don't be so strong that you deny your own needs.
Sometimes we try to be strong to a fault, out of the best motivations & intentions. Please let yourself be hurt & now is the time to let someone else carry some of the burden/ be strong, for a change. Chances are, you may be more needy than you are allowing yourself to be.
The Following User Says Thank You to angelwish For This Useful Post: NSANMOM24 (10-05-2012)
Re: My Dad has been gone 4 months on Sept. 30... 
