I just ran across this board & I am hoping it will give me some comfort in knowing that I am not alone in this lonely world. First off, I am 35 years old stay at home mom to 3 beautiful daughters ages, 10, 7 & 7. Married to the love of my life for 17 years now. Anyway, I lost my mama on Dec 27th 1993 from a 18 month battle of breast cancer & on Sept 24th 2012, I lost my Daddy to cancer. We found out on Sept 12th that he had cancer in his lungs, spine & ribs then 6 days later we found out it was also in his liver, brain, lymph nodes, adrenal glands, all over & 12 days after finding out he lost his battle. Not only was he my last parent but he was my best friend. He lived right out my front door & we saw him several times a day & I could call him day or night about anything. Now, I have the biggest hole in my heart & Idk if I will ever be happy again everything just happened so quick & was so unexpected. I feel like a orphan it's unbearable to even open my front door. I loved my mama & I was totally a mama's girl & it was very hard when I lost her but, this is about to kill me!! Please someone tell me that this will get easier.
The following user gives a hug of support to Suttonx5: Vivicide (11-01-2012)
I can only say that 3 years ago, I had the greatest loss of my life and was in so much emotional pain, it became physical as well. I couldn't sleep well and when I would watch t.v., thoughts about it would keep tormenting me.
After 2 years, the physical pain suddenly lessened, then was intermittent. For the first time in 2 years, I was pain-free part of the day and that put me in a better mood and things improved to the point that I wasn't miserable anymore.
I'm not the same person I was before the loss, though. I tend to be sadder and I like to spend some time alone now, as it is exhausting to put on a "happy face". Yet, I'm no longer tormented by the sadness. I can actually enjoy things now, such as making cookies with my son, or going to dinner or a movie and it is getting better and better.
Your father sounds like a wonderful person and I'm very sorry for your loss.
Last edited by elizabeth62; 11-01-2012 at 07:15 AM.
The following user gives a hug of support to elizabeth62: Suttonx5 (11-12-2012)
Elizabeth, I am very sorry for your loss also. You described myself to a T. Sounds like you are doing better now, which gives me hope. Thank you so much for taking the time to share your experience with me.