I am only 22 years old, the same age as my boyfriend. We were going to get married after we both graduated from college. I graduate in 2 and a half weeks and he had another year of school left. 4 days ago while he was home visiting his family. He and his friends were in a bad car accident and my boyfriend did not survive. He was my soul mate and it was so sudden that I don't feel like I can keep on living without him. Nobody I know has gone through anything like this so I'm desperate to find someone that can understand what I'm going through. He is the love of my life and we had our whole future planned and now he is gone. Its just so hard because it was so sudden and he was so young. I love you, Jacob and I will miss you forever.
Has anyone else been through something like this because I need help... I only had the love of my life for 3 very short years...
- Colleen
Last edited by AllByChance; 11-28-2012 at 02:39 PM.
Hello Colleen, I know there is nothing I can say to make you feel any better...I'm very sorry for your loss...coming to this board is a good thing for you to do...you can talk to people going thru similar things. Death effects every fiber of your being...grief can consume you sooo fast. Your most likely still in some form of shock...it's okay....try to remember everything you can..not just your last moments with him, but everything going on around you...your going to replay these days over and over. And you need robe around people who love you and loved him. That's important. And cry all you want.. When you love someone THAT much you should never try to hold it infor ANY reason.
I lost my husband and brother the same day. They weren't together...I was caring for my brother, he was dying from cirrhosis . When hospice said he would pass soon I called my family to come say their good byes. My husband was killed in an accident on his way to see my brother. Then my brother died 8 hours later.
I was in shock for a few days...and the accident still tears me apart...it's been 1 1/2 yrs and I still have so many questions......
But right now Colleen, you need to take care of your self, seriously, sleep when you can, and be sure to eat. I know you probably don't feel like it, but please try, okay...it's a rough ride that you have ahead of you and your gonna need all the strength you can muster. Please keep in touch...if you only need to rantor ramble I'll listen...I understand.... DANNIE55
