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My son suffered a devastating stroke and passed away at 43. I cannot get out of my mind he was holding my hand and would not let go when I was asked to leave the room for him to be put on life support. I had to pry his hand off mine.
People say I should be *happy* that we had that moment together. I say I wish I would have stayed with him until the end. As it was, once he was put on life support he never moved again. When I saw him after he was life supported he had tears that I wiped... that was all...he had surgery to relieve brain swelling but it was to late.
I can not get over this feeling of him hanging on and me letting go..as a Mother , you should never have to do that to your child.
Will this pain ever subside? It is now 6 months and it does not get any better.