Hi there ~ I am sorry that you have suffered so many losses in such a short period of time.
I know a little bit about that having lost my little brother and mom just 9 months apart.
My brother had a rare disorder and was in Hospice care for 3 years, where we had time to prepare for his passing as difficult as it was.
And then my mom, healthy as can be walking 4 miles a day and never hospitalized her entire life was diagnosed with Biliary Cancer and gone within 3 months time.
I realized at that time who were my true friends and who weren't just like you.
And my mom once said that you are blessed if by the end of your lifetime you could count the true friends on one hand.
Also prior to the loss of my dear brother and mom, my one daughter was diagnosed with depression and then Bipolar.
Our lives were torn upside down during this time and we felt isolated and so alone since she had 4 hospitalizations before we were able to get down to what was going on.
Like you, most of who we thought were our friends seemed to abandon us in our time of need some treating us as if we had the plague.
But then there was this one couple who knocked on our door and told us they wanted to spend time with us and missed us....they told us that they didn't know what to do or say to make us feel better but wanted us to know that they cared.
They handed us the phone # of a friend who had a son with depression and Bipolar who had told them we could call them for support at any time. And that gesture was the most appreciated and loving thing that a friend could do for us at a time we felt soo very helpless and alone.
Anyway......we truly cherish this couple to this day who stood by our side while others seemed to go about their lives.....and KNOW that they are the type of friends we can always count on during both good times and bad.
I am sorry that you didn't have any that could be there in that capacity for you.
I think it has more to do with them and their ability to stick by somebody going through a hard time even if they don't quite know what to say or do.
I am glad that you are moving on......it sounds like your girlfriends were young and immature and emotionally incapable of being the type of friend you needed.
Their lives have moved to a plane that is so different than yours is right now.
Probably best to be open to friendships that are more mature and supportive of your needs at this time.
Hoping that you have had time to heal from the losses over the past 7 years and can take some time to take good care of YOU.
((((HUGS)))) ~ Ivory