tmrlittlebit

I was in an auto accident back in 2000. since then have suffered the most ungodly type of headaches. I am not sure how I have kept my sanity though the past few years but I have.
My accident (which was not in any way my fault) happened as I was on my way to work. I was just starting into a new job ,it was my 2nd week. this job offered health insurance. which I did not have at the time ,and still dont have.
I was working two jobs, a single mother with two teenage boys at home.
a driver in another car,buzy talking on a cell phone, sees the green turning arrow and goes through the light ,thinking he has the right away, Me I'm turning left on the green arrow,I was the third car from the light, I never seen him coming, well I'm sure you get the idea.
I did have a witness who stopped, only one in the middle of the afternoon during the heaviest traffic of the day.
the police finally came and took statements, and asked if I needed an ambulance , I refused the ambulance , it was the first mistake I made.
I did go to my doctor that same day, I was hurt but really didnt know how bad.
the headaches started almost immediatly but I thought it was from hitting my head on that plastic thing that the seatbelt comes down from. I got pain medication from my doctor. and went home and the next few weeks after tried to get back to normal.
I must say I've learned alot about how the insurance companies work and also how doctors treat people who do not have a regular health insurance co.
I went through PT and have had some testing done.and was told I have two herniated disks, but what I hear is headaches arent considered to be a serious injury.
I think well I sure wish you'd get one of these "not serious" headaches and see what you think then. Its been over three years and the headaches I get feel like this:I always have one but the worst ones usually starts around the neck and its like blowing up a balloon, the pressure gets so intense that I really think my head will explode. The only thing I can do is go to bed turn off the phone and cry.
the insurance company hasn't paid anything on my medical since 2001 and I lost the job I was starting back then so I never got the health care. the second job I had was independent work ( I worked at home) for electronics company.but it was only part time, I only was making 100.00 a week from it.
My house went into forclosure my leased veihicle was reposest , I had to go to some of the help sevices here just to get food in my house, My two sons were both trying to help, they had jobs working at fast food. but only allowed so many hours a week, they were still in school.and I was in so much pain that i wasnt any good to anyone.I eventually lost even my part-time job, My boss said I was forgetting things and my personallity wasnt the same.what ever that was suppose to mean.
so now, the Doctors that Ive seen say you really need to go to a nuerologist,
but I have no insurance and cant even get an appointment with one because I dont, I'm told they need to do testing and without health insurance the cost would be to much.
My oldest son turned 22 today he is doing ok. my younger son is 20 and now married and in medical school.I really am glad they are doing well. it was hard for them at home.
I do have a lawyer for the auto accident and hes ready to settle, because headaches arent considered an injury and I cant prove a thing I will only get a few thousand, I lost all I had back then, I had to file bankruptcy to try and save my house,I did lose it.
I am now engaged to a wonderful man who has been helping me, I live with him. so its not all a tragidy.
I just really want my life back the way it was , and thats not a possibility, and if those of you who suffer as I do could tell me how to resolve the pain with out medication or a doctor ,I am listening. thank-you