On the verge of disability
So my background, I had a cervical corpectomy with fusion in December 2011 for herniated disks and hardened bones pressing on my spinal cord. This was to stop the progression and prevent paralysis. The surgery went well and healed, but I was left with permanent nerve damage and now suffer from chronic pain in my neck, shoulders and arms. I am in constant pain and some days can barley move.
Work in a nut shell is horrible. I am in pain from the time I get up in the morning. It hurts to shower and dress, I am in agony from the drive in, and from the time i sit at my desk till I clock out I am in pain. I've done everything i can to be more comfortable, had my desk arranged by an ergonomic specialist, use a heating pad at my desk and try to take breaks and stretch.
I am on intermittent FMLA, but know my work would like me gone. They have me on performance improvement and feel they would like to let me go.
I think the FMLA is the only thing stopping them right now.
With all this I just don't know how much longer I am going to be able to work. Either by me going on disability or being let go and then having to go that route.
And disability concerns me. On one side I think it would be good to totally concentrate on my health and try to if not get better, at least learn to deal with my condition and find better ways to manage it. Without the physical and mental stress of work, this would probably be beneficial.
But then I have concerns on money. The loss of income, the unknown if you actually can get approved and the struggle while you wait the long period of denials and hearings.
Then their is the emotional side. I would hope I use the time to work on my health and stay engage in life, but of course their is the chance of becoming depressed, feeling useless and just stop living. Things now are tough as my condition limits so much of what I do, I would hate to be worse, not only for myself, but for my wife.
I would love to hear from those who went through the process.
The health boards have been so helpful, just to be able to get your feelings out and hear from others. Thanks to everyone on these boards who have helped me over this past year.
Last edited by Administrator; 04-10-2013 at 06:24 PM.