Re: Taking Life Back
I had bypass x 5 in May of 03 after a big time MI. Some of the things you mentioned are really going to be determined on the overall health of your heart. Not so much what you think that health is, but what the doctors say it is. I understand the "Cardiac Cripple" feeling as I am sure most of us that have bypass can. Alot of the energy and ambition that you may not have can be attributed to meds. Beta blockers can really sap your strength and leave you feeling like a couch potato.
For me, I went back to work a couple of days after I got home. I made it 20 minutes before I had to leave. My doctor was really really upset with me, but I had to go for myself and to let my employees know that the place wasn't going to close up. Going to work also did a few things for me. It got me out of the house and walking and started me to realizing that I wasn't dead yet. Over a period of two months, I was able to get back to full time. All the way I started doing things around the house, mowing the lawn on a tractor, sweeping the garage out. All pretty lightweight stuff, but I was doing something and not feeling like an invalid. I got stronger, I walked alot and I was feeling better everyday. Maybe, because I had my mind on other things other than my heart or what was left of it.
Sure, there are alot of things that I can't do anymore as well as I could or it just takes alot longer, but that's okay with me. Things still get done, just over a longer period of time. I built a wooden screen behind my dog kennels this year. I would have be able to do that in a weekend before. This time it took me a month, but I am proud of it because I did it myself.
I guess what I am trying to tell you is that the physical healing happens over a period of several months to maybe a year. The mental side of things can take alot longer and is maybe harder to deal with. Don't be afraid of asking for help with it, but you still have to work hard at it. It's all about baby steps at first. Yeah, those are pretty small steps, but they are still steps forward.
Good luck and remember its always a beautiful day for smiling.