I am declaring war on my unhealthiness. - Heart Disorders Message Board

mr_panicky · 08-12-2006, 01:55 AM

There are 2 sides of me. For the lack of a better term I have my good side and my dark side. I am a 6’1” 270lb obese make who leads a very sedentary lifestyle. I don’t drink, I don’t smoke but food is my greatest weakness. I love to eat. I can down a pint of Dove or Ben and Jerry’s with no hesitation.
Back in February, weighing in at 318lbs I had a panic attack, several really that landed me in the ER 3 times.

Why? Cause I thought I was having a heart attack. After an EKG, stress treadmill test, dobutamine echo stress test w/echocardiogram, and a 1 week Holter moinitor all came to the following conclusion. To quote my cardiologist “people would pay millions for your heart” but I have hypertension. It’s stage 1 kinda close to stage 2. My cholesterol was actually not too bad either. I walked thru a landmine and lived so far to talk about it.
Why? Cause I am a sedentary lazy individual who doesn’t exercise. My cardiologist even told me I could get my heart rate over 200bpm and I would not have a heart attack and that I could go full blast.

But what do I do? I got on a treadmill for a total of 4 times. That was it. I am for all intents Self Destructive. I am lazy and I expect things to happen with little or no effort on my part.

What I have accomplished was a loss of 50lbs since February but since my anxiety/panic has diminished I am not as scared to eat B&J’s on a regular basis.

I went to Wal-Mart tonight to get a pint of Dove’s new Undeniably Chocolate and before I checked my BP on their machine, it was 152/92. I walked out of the store without anything. No ice cream, nothing.

I made a choice; I am going to commit mental suicide. The self destructive part of me will now die off. I am declaring war on what destroys me. It thrives on not eating for long periods them gorging myself on pizza or other foods and then I wonder why my pulse spikes up to 100-112bpm.

I am close to identifying why I have high blood pressure. I am obese, I eat unhealthily, I don’t exercise, I sit down all day.
I am in the process of formulating a plan of attack, I am too young to be scared of all the horrible pessimistic outcomes.

This is my life and I will take it and make it into a healthy mentally and physically sound one.

I will keep everyone posted as I begin the process and how it impacts my health.

This is my apocalypse, then I have a feel that very soon this will be my renaissance.

It’s late and I need sleep, been up 20 hrs

Wish me luck

Lenin · 08-12-2006, 05:05 AM

What a WONDEFUL turnaround Mr. Panicky...48 pounds in 6 months is spectacular.

May you get 48 more at this time in 2007.

With your lowering weight, the treadmill and the weights will become more and more inviting...well, less and loss horrific then.

And remember, with a sharp serrated knife, even a solid ice cream like Ben and Jerry's can be sawed into two equal portions (carton and all)...though STILL over 500 calories each, hence an OCCASIONAL treat.

I guess you've reached your epiphany, crossed your Rubicon, and tossed your die...good luck in dumping the dead old you! Like vampires, they tend to try to come alive readily so keep a stake (not a steak) handy.

cahawk · 08-12-2006, 10:44 AM

That's great! I have a book called the PH Miracle for Weight Loss that has helped me incredibly. Basically it explains why our bodies hang onto extra weight even when we cut down on fat, calories, carbs, etc. It is very insightful and helped me lose 2 full sizes in only 3 weeks! I'm still at it, it is a lifestyle. Wishing you the very best!

Beefsteak · 08-15-2006, 10:57 AM

Well done Panicky! Making the decision to change is the first step.
My advice is to keep focussed and make changes that are not so great that it all becomes a major lifestyle challenge.
Forget the food, diet and your weight. Concentrate on one thing only - exercise.
Make that your first base. That's achievable if you are focussed.
If you are lazy join a gym.
Establish a good exercise routine that has fitness goals you strive for each day - your food can even become the reward (within reason tho). You need rewards. Reward yourself with nice flavors, spices and anything fresh.
If you exercise well the food will be better utilised by your body and your demands for healthier food will increase.
As you bring your bulk down you will eat less, and food will be more enjoyable.
As humans the one thing we don't do that stuffs us up most is lack of proper exercise.
Good luck,
Beefy