babygirl2you

Hey all,

Found this page when I was looking for boards on Panic Disorders.

A few years ago I started having panic attacks and have been thinking that I've developed panic disorder. I came here and found posts on MVP and PSVT and I couldn't help but notice that the symptoms, and what people are describing are exactly what I've been going through. I haven't yet gone to a doctor because I don't have insurance and I don't have a job so I would have to rely on my older brother, or mom, to front the bill and I really don't want have to do that, but I'm curious if this sounds like what this is. And also since I talk about stuff that I am going through with other panic attack sufferers and it's funny because there is always something that just doesn't feel right, things that I am experiencing that they haven't or aren't.


I seem to constantly be dizzy all of the time, but there are periods when it goes away. Though, I eat plenty, get exercise and drink lots of water. I'm overall a very healthy person - except for all of this. My dizziness has gotten to the point where I want always have something close to me that I can lean on or hold onto, just in case. I can get away with exercising - in my room - and say, running in place for 5 minutes, but I don't have the energy to walk down the street and around my block. I start to get really dizzy, then it ends up where I also get lightheaded. My dizziness and lightheadedness go hand in hand.

I suffer from panic attacks, but yet I almost feel like they aren't exactly panic attacks. And because of that I'm taking SJW to keep my system calm - that is the ONLY thing that I take into my system. I don't take meds and I don't drink, smoke, do drugs, etc.

I'm anxious all of the time because of what I feel and because of the lightheadedness I am always afraid that I'm gonna pass out and I get embarrassed because of it.

Because of the panic attacks and feeling this way, I've gotten to the point where I am also depressed sometimes just because I'm tired of living in my head, and not knowing what is going on with me. Especially when the people around me tell me I should find someone to talk to and yet I have, but that doesn't lesson anything I've been feeling. But at the same time, I'm a happy person and don't feel like this is 'just' panic attacks.

I also have moments where I can't breathe - I even get to the point where I can't stand up without breathing hard. My heart starts beating really fast. Other times for certain time periods I get these very sharp, shooting pains in my heart. So I get a lot of heart palpitations, fluttering, and stabbing pains.

I'm constantly tired. I feel like I am a hundred years old and yet I make sure to exercise 5 days a week. I've always been athletic so it isn't like I'm out of shape, or for any other reason I am 'over' working myself or anything. It's frustrating because I don't have energy to even work outside in the yard. About the most I can force myself to do is an hour and if I do that, I'll pay later because then my body aches and hurts.

I've been getting worse headaches as well. My mom has suffered from Migraines and I didn't think I'd ever get them, but right now I think that I'm progressing to that point because I get headaches at least once a week and they are getting worse.


I've also suffered from IBS my entire life. Right now, surprisingly for the past 3 years it's been on a hiatus so I am very happy about that. I'm sure it'll come back though

I had my dad die in '01 from a Heart Attack and then before him his mom and dad also died of Heart Attacks so at the age I am (27) and being a healthy woman that has had family die of heart attacks I know I am a prime candidate for that which freaks me out.

I thought it was just stress and went to take time off from my Nanny job, but now I no longer have that job - the mom fired me. I own my own AVON business, but don't earn that much right now because I don't have the energy to keep up with everything day to day. It takes everything to even take care of my dogs and chickens. I'm just always tired and exhausted. When I push myself too hard I start feeling pain in my chest and dizziness/lightheadedness. So honestly, this is frustrating me and my instincts tell me it is my heart. Which, as my best friend has always told me, my intincts are usually dead on. I also don't want go to the doctor because 1 - I don't want be told that it's all in my head and 2 - I don't want go to the doctor and be told that there is something seriously wrong with me and then have to be stuck on all these meds and such. I don't trust doctors - I've never had one I could trust since I was very young, but that doctor moved and that's the last one I trusted. I've been to the doctors more times than I can count, only to watch them cause more pain and suffering to everyone - including me - around me and it freaks me out to think that I HAVE to go.

Anyhoos, thank you for listening and reading. Any help would be SO incredibly appreciated. Any questions you want ask - feel free.

Kim

Editing to include some more symptoms I forgot to add.
I also realized I forgot to mention this persistent cough I have. It isn't really a cough cough, but this once in while dry plain cough that I have had since I've noticed all this three years ago.
Same with cold chills and numbness in different parts of my body at different times.