This last month has been tough... The frequency and severity of my heart palpitations have increased since the beginning of March and it is really making me angry because no matter what I do they will not go away. I could be perfectly relaxed (thanks to my xanax medication) working on a website and boom, my heart flops around like a fish out of water for a second and just after that happens my face feels like it's going to explode and for whatever reason the skin on my hands and arms feels like its cracking. Its very discomforting and forces me to take more xanax (which can become expensive).
I realized, however, that this has happened every spring and fall since I moved from the desert when I was 12/13. With every year I feel as though the severity and frequency does actually increase, but I'm really not sure. These stupid things lead me to my life-changing panic attack in the spring of 08 that lead to my "lay-off", my alcoholism, and the reason I dropped out of college (couldn't sit in class without having an anxiety attack). I WILL NOT exert myself in any way as to not stir up palpitations and panic attacks so I stopped exercising and I've gained a ton of weight... My father thinks I'm lazy, but really I'm just really scared of having a heart attack since heart disease is in both sides of both sides (and so-on) of my family.
I'm just getting really sick of whatever is going on in my chest and if anybody can recommend anything that may help that does not require a doctor it would be much appreciated. Since I'm not working I haven't any healthcare and furthermore no money. (It would make sense that this would contribute to anxiety and therefore cause palpitations, but anxiety/paplitations from what I can gather is a chicken and egg kind of situation... however, I can tell you the palpitations came first). I've been drinking a lot of grape juice and taking acai supplements but from what I have experienced is its a joke, my palpitations are not becoming less frequent. Damn things wake me up at night