Susan and Thanbey: I am so delighted and pleased that you Veterans were kind enough to talk with me. I have been on Pain Support Boards and was a Mod for about a year. I was very sick then...mostly based on coping with intractable pain.
Boath of you make excellent points. I do know that the transfusion caused the acute hep C and I will clarify that I was tested in the hospital for hep profile and I finally went to the hospital and got my own records.
It makes me feel cheated that at no time that I had hep c but was told high suspicion of Luekemia and enlarged spleen which they were talking about removing. It is a good thing I asked some questions and did not allow them to just remove the spleen.
My doc did not follow up as you state....but he is not on the hospital staff...so he asked a nother doc to admit me. The past times I had GI bleeds were thought to have been from GERD and ulcers....
However, I have now had 4 scopes in 4 years and none said I clearly had ulcers. My therory is that before I ever touched a narcotic pain killer, I was taking Advil about 10 a day. That was from severe pain. Then I went to 2 different pain clinics which with all my health problems basically rx pain meds every 3 months.
All of this complicated by the fact that I suffer from panic attacks and have been taking zanax for years. Is there any wonder? I do not feel sorry for myself, But in sincerity, some people may have not made it thru what I have and the hits just keep on coming...no pun.
I have to laugh to keep my sanity. As far as seeking a new set of docs. I have done that several times. They will not admit it...but lets face it...I am a liability for most docs. With my symptoms and dx.
I do not drive and I have checked on the handicapped transit systems. The liver specialist did act like he did not wish to do a biopsy unless it was absolutely nessessary. You guys explained that part because I do have a bleeding problem.
I had always heard that insurance and money had lots to do with treatment. I do have medicare. I worked 2o years. Also, I am shocked that being told by most every doc I have seen that my liver function was high...that they did not request hep c profile long ago. or they did and just never told me. Did they not have a responsibility? Because I had been drinking a beer or 2 on the weekends. Those days are over.
That's why I am in addiction and recovery. I do not think I am addicted but I need to keep my eyes wide open and focused. I have yet to tell all about my physical problems because it sounds like a dead man walking. I think that when the docs see my weight and numerous serious potential surgeries that I need, they may be thinking exactly what I think...if I am so bad sick I do not wish to be sliced and diced.
The surgery list include carpal tunnel, Bone spurs, the neuro said he cannot pinpoint all the nerve damage in my spinal cord. The ortho surgeon says, that I will still probably require pain meds the rest my of life. It all mixes up to be a bad situation.
I keep hoping tommorrow will be a better day and I have NOT given up. I would have already if I were going to do that. I am still considering new set of docs....I am so weary and tired from the same old things and outcomes. I am not sure it benefit me to change a set of docs. My primary does care. He had me admitted even if it was by another doc when the hospital allowed me to sit in the ER throwing up black tar(which was blood).
I find it difficult to keep the docs appointments I have now. If either of you or anyone wishes tom ask more questions, feel free. This board is my only hope of receiving reliable info imo.
God Bless and Thank You,
Risky Business PS. I am 42 and married without children. I have rwecently wanted to just check in the hospoital for exhaustion. Then it dawns on me...they trew me out when I had syptoms of luekemia...well actually I was feeling better because of the transplant I suppose.
[This message has been edited by Risky Business (edited 04-12-2003).]