Thank u all for the posts, I appreciate it. I do have a blue cross HMO but it is not self refer. I just feel so stuck and so sad. I hurt all the time

and I feel so humiliated every time I talk to my doctors because they make me feel like I am just pushing for drugs which also makes me angry

so now I am just waiting it out. My doctor ordered another MRI because he said the open MRI may have not given a complete picture, that a closed MRI would be better. It just makes me feel good to know that people like you guys know what I am going through. Thanks again.