Ok, I have had enough,
First off, I want to say thank you to those who let me rant and ramble like a spoiled child. I really do not know where else to go and talk about this crud. This outbreak or I should say outbreaks, have lasted 4 months now. One clears up, two more takes it's place. I am in so much pain, it hurts to sit, it hurts to walk. My customers keep asking me if I hurt my leg because I am walking funny,,, I have 4 clusters on my vaginal area and today I have two under my breast.
I went to my Dr in tears last night, and we did find out I do have a bacterial infection from where I scratch in my sleep. I am tired, grumpy, sad and very tearful, and yes, feeling sorry for myself. My husband is acting all put out by my herpes. We have not had sex in 4 months, because I do not want him to go through this pain. I know it is frustrating to him, but how in the hell does he think I feel? I cried myself to sleep, almost wishing I were dead. I know that sounds severe, but it is how I felt. My overactive imagination keeps telling me "you have aids, that is why so many outbreaks". I know stressing makes them worse, but how am I not suppossed to stress????????????