No worries. As for going to the bathroom, you have a couple of options. Stick with me, it gets kind of graphic here... when I sit down on the toilet, I push my pants down below my knees, spread my legs as far apart as I can and lean forward like I'm trying to touch my chin to my knee. I know, it sounds odd, but your urine is what is irritating you and causing the pain. So, by spreading yourself apart as much as you can, it lessens the amount of urine that gets on your sores. The second thing (I got this from someone else on here and it helps a lot - thank you to whoever it was!) is you can purchase a small lotion bottle - they usually have these at discount stores in the same place with the travel items - the kind with a pop top that you can squeeze. Fill it with warn or cool water depending on what feels better on your sores (I personally, like cool water) and squirt the water on yourself while you pee and when you finish. Again, I know..it sounds crazy, but it works. It'll dilute the urine and clean you off. Also, this is something else to think about; some women have a discharge when they have an outbreak. This discharge can also cause you pain. The best thing you can do is to keep yourself clean and dry. Some of the other posters on here swear by an olive oil and garlic concoction to ease pain/itching. You can also use tea tree oil but watch out, it stings a little at first but the relief that comes after is worth it.
And it's OK.....I'm still sad about getting this, too. Go do something nice for yourself like getting a manicure or a massage. Just because you have this, doesn't mean that you can't enjoy life.