Thank you so much for your response. Yes, for now, I am limiting myself to a dating site for those who share the condition. I know it would be better to not do that, but I guess after a deep heartbreak this summer of losing someone after I told them about the virus, I decided that at least this way, I could avoid having the "talk", and thereby dodge some heartache. It was my first time to have the "talk" since finding out that I was positive...so maybe that's why it was so traumatic...losing him sent me into a depression ( I have been dealing with that for years, anyway, before this happened), and thankfully I was seeing a therapist at the time, but it was all still really painful.
Have you had any experience with this before, or any advice on how I can "steel" myself against being hurt real bad if I do get rejected again because of the virus? How do I know if I'm telling my date soon enough, or too soon, too? Living in a small city, I worry about my condition being "gossiped" about, also. I know there are way worse things in life than this condition, and maybe I haven't given the "general" dating field enough of a chance...
I also see and read sometimes how folks find someone special, and alot of times the people they find do not have the virus, but somehow it just doesn't seem real that it could happen to me...I'm older (mid-40's) and have been single for a long time.
Thank you for reading this, and any input or advice you feel led to share will be greatly appreciated! Have a wonderful day!