Hey, im 17 years old and have had a rash since last march break on my penis. I have made the biggest mistake i could have possible made on S trip which consisted of going to Montreal for five days. I met a girl down there and we fooled around and I accidently rubbed my penis on her vagina. I am still a vergin, and yet I have genital herpes now. The outbreak hasn't happened yet but its a defined "herpes rash", and I have all of the symptoms they talk about online. I made a decision that has showed me everything im going to miss out on. I don't know how to deal with this, I have three girls that have all asked me out and I dont know what to do. I want to feel real love but I feel like I have thrown all of that away because of drunken stupidity. I don't know how i'm going to deal with this, if anyone has advice or anything please share! I'm dying inside every day, knowing you have it becomes the only thing your able to think about and starts to consume your life. This is my first post, I felt that maybe trying this would allow me to start to accept it and move on. Thanks!