cdcooper1973

I was with a guy several months ago and we used a condom. I decided I didn't want a relationship and he kept insisting he did. When he realized I wouldn't budge, he started calling me names and told me "BTW, I have an STD."

I went to the dr. and had them run every test imaginable. I found out 3 days ago I have HSV2. I have never had a breakout, signs, or symptoms. If this guy hadn't said what he did, I would never have known. The thing is that I don't even know if he is the one who gave it to me. I had been seeing a soldier for a few years and he was transfered about a two years ago to another state. The last night he was here though, we spent it together, and I remember he had like a rash of scabs on his back, buttocks, and upper thighs, and when I asked him what happened he said it was a skin rash. Regardless, what kind of person can knowingly give another an STD!!??

I feel like my life is over and I will always be alone. What man is going to want a woman with an STD they can never get rid of? I freaked out when my nurse told me and then the doctor called me and kept telling me I am not dirty, it is not the end of the world...she said I may never even have a breakout, but to ease my mind she put me on preventive medication called Acyclovir. I refuse to disclose this to my family. I feel like I am going to explode inside with my secret. Does it get any easier? Am I doomed to a life alone? If others are going through this same thing, how do you cope? How do you tell a potential partner about having an STD? I can't even imagine dating with that thought looming over me.