Hi this is my first time posting on blogs or message boards. And I just needed some advice on what to do. I have been diagnosed with bipolar & schitzophrinia. It's held me back from going back to school and doing things I enjoy . I'm really insecure with who I am and I'm really shy around people and scared of rejection . I've met this wonderful guy who loves me and wants to be my boyfriend and he makes me laugh and smile all the time . He has a nice personality . But I just didn't feel I was ready for a relationship . Because I was so depressed. And I feel like a horrible person because I ended up meeting a new guy and I thought he was cute so I hooked up with him and ended up with oral herpes . And I ended up passing it to the guy that wants to be my boyfriend.
And that's not even the worst part because my 6 year old niece uses my chapstick and now I think she has it too! Idk what to do. I'm so disgusted with myself . I knew I was at risk but I never imagined id end up putting the people I loved at risk and I've been stressing out everyday forcing myself to go to work.
I already told my frriend that wants to be my bf that I might have passed him herpes . He doesn't seem to be to worried about it and he said he still loves me . I know I don't deserve him. But the worst part I can't get over is my niece . Cause I love her so much. And she looks up too me and I'm scared for her health now and afraid she'll hate me when she's older. I've tried telling my mom I might have passed it on to my niece but she ignores it or doesn't want to believe it yet because I haven't got tested for it yet . But I'm positive I have it now. And I'be tried getting tested but I have to make another appointment and I've been working a lot.
So please if anyone has any good or positive advice is appeeaciate it thank you
Last edited by Administrator; 12-05-2012 at 08:55 PM.