| | Trouble dealing with herpes...
Today will be a day that I remember for the rest of my life. I went to the doctor to treat a yeast infection and ended up finding out that I have herpes. The culture hasn't come back yet, so I'm not sure which kind yet, but needless to say i'm devastated.
Out of ALL of my friends I have always been the safest with sex. I didn't lose my virginity until I was 18. And until a month ago (I'm 23 now) I had only had sex with 2 people my whole life. Unfortunately, the last guy was a serious boyfriend that I had a long-term relationship with. He frequently got cold sores, but I never thought anything of it. We broke up, and I obviously wanted to explore. I had sex with 2 guys this last month, and the last one was actually only 3 days ago. My friends are all pretty slutty, and I guess i'm just wondering why this is happening to me? Someone so careful and protective.
Anyway, my family and friends are not as accepting as they should be, and I don't feel safe to tell any of them. I'm guessing I got it from my boyfriend of two years, and I just didn't get any symptoms until now. But needless to say, I can't turn to any of the guys and ask them.. I feel so alone. I've obviously been looking for a new relationship and now I feel so hopeless! I feel that no man will accept me now, because I know how I would feel if a guy came to me and told me he had herpes. I've also experienced how much guys hate condoms this last month, and all the excuses they have not to use them. How do I deal with using a condom without it coming out that I have herpes? How do I go about telling a future partner?
I'm scared, hopeless, confused, ashamed, embarrassed, devastated and so much more all at once! Can anyone help me right now? Share with me their experiences, or even just give me some advice. It would be greatly appreciated!
Thank you everyone!!