Thanks for replying to my post
I'm glad I found this message board, so I have some support from other people going through the same thing. Its not something you can just be open about with other people/friends since they attach a stigma to it, and think it's a punchline to a joke. I can't tell you how many times I've been with friends where they make offhand herpes jokes that they think are funny, and I have to control my eye rolling, because they don't know I have it. They can't know how insensitive they're being.
Anyway. It's good to see that there's hope out there for dating. It makes me feel less hopeless. The idea of taking valtrex everyday was talked about with that guy I was dating that broke up with me. I told him I talked to my doctor about it before I started dating anyone. My doctor said that since I wasn't suffering from outbreaks on a regular basis, and was only getting and average of 2-3 outbreaks a year, that it would be harsh on my body to take a daily antiviral. She prescribed me one that I could take as needed--only if I felt an outbreak coming on. I would take these for ~5 days. I don't know how I feel putting my body through daily antiviral medication for someone if I'm in a relationship, and if it doesn't really decrease the rate of transmission that much if you're already abstaining from sexual contact during outbreaks. I've heard that taking daily medication (not sure about antivirals specifically, but medicine in general) messes with your liver, but I'm not an expert and I don't know the exact effects/harm daily antivirals have on your body.
My outbreaks are like one or two blisters every six months. Every year and a half I'll get an outbreak on my upper lip/chin which is only triggered if I'm really stressed. My outbreaks have gotten a lot less severe in number of recurrences and number of blisters per outbreak over the years. The first few years were the worst/most painful.
The guy I was dating texted me to meet him talk after he considered the situation for two days. He broke up with me in person, so he wasn't a rat. That's what makes it harder, because I don't hate him! haha.. It's been a little over two months since the break-up and It's hurting less. I kept hoping he would realize how much he missed me, and that I was worth the risk and that he would come back to me, but he hasn't. He's been able to stay away from me for two months so my absence must not really affect him. I guess he's doing fine on his own, so he must've never really cared that much about me or had any depth of feelings for me to begin with. That is what is making it easier for me to move on.