Im going to give you my nitty,sometimes gritty gritty story.........
I dont know where to begin so I'll begin w/ my life prior to marraige and family life...
I led a lifestyle of drugs and girls,girls and drugs(no needles)...and more girls.
I'm a good-lookin' guy.At least my wife tells me that everyday- ( & I pay her to say it)...point is getting girls were never a problem,in fact I couldn't count on one hand when I had to make the first move(i was a bit shy at times)...they always initiated.And I of course obliged
this went on from 1991 to 1997 rampantly.64 partners in that period.not proud of that...At that point I decided to make a life change.And did.
It was too late,I was exposed from a person who little did I know was sleeping with every dog under the tree.
When I began to get back on the right path in life,I met my wife almost Immediately-It was ordained,magic)of course I didnt know i was building a viral load right then...GOD protected my wife until we found out--applying for mortgage insurance,they took blood.I went on a short biz trio to Atlanta. And when I got back someone at work told me the health dept. was looking for me.
Immediately I knew.I knew.I knew.So me and my engaged wife went there and confirmed it...IT WAS DEVASTAtING,for quite a while actually.
Took me 5 yrs to put it in its place...
I had no idea what a mind**** can play on you when your'e told to alter or obstain your sexual persona...hell,your sexuality!!!my mojo,baby.
I had a test in October 1997 knowing I was through whorin' around...It was negative.
the antibodies had not arrived yet.
So when the health Dept found out and I was getting all turned in a 180
with drs drugs and the like...
I had a viral load of 16,000 some odd(caught early)
T count was 800+,it is now about 400
my regimin is viramune,ziagen and epivir 1 tab twice a day.you can now take many of your meds all at one time...ask your doctor.
im 41,I feel 70 sometimes...why is that?
I'm beginning to see secondary arteriel veins and arteries in my legs.makes me wear pants.sad.freaks me out to look down at your once normal legs and allbodyfat is gone.tell me about lipodystrophy ,I know its fat re-deistribution
due to the medicine or
virus they'll say.i know certain meds cause it .Ziagen being one...
I feel like **** all the time.meaning listless ,fatigued.whats the deal?I know Im not alone...is anybody unable to work yet? I feel i'm geetting closer to that.Im too damn listless and tired.Like a flat tire..
IM SICK OF IT.
Im sick of the FDA's link with the Federal trade comission when they,,,by law...are required to turn a profit for their publicly traded companies...To win their stockholders profit line...THERE IS NO BIGGER CONFLICT OF INTEREST.
my meds were all 225.00 dollars(ea.) 4yrs ago.now they are 450.00(ea.)...I cant talk about this,it literally makes me sick to my gut.onward though I'm cuttin short its getting very late...
I know were suffering some of the same probs.I would like to know case historys and symptomatic and problematic isuues along our way.
med info,diet,etc...TALK TO ME TELL ME HOW ITS BEEN.
PS Im not through with my intro.