brainchild

Hi!! ih ope some1 can help me cos im going round the bend!! i have ALWAYS been really worried, even obsessed sometimes, about catching hiv. i donjt know how likely it is that i could get it. i have slept with 2 ppl, both long term b/f, always protected. and i do worry about catching it thru that!! but my biggest concern is getting it from a needle stick injury or something!! when i was 16, i heard a story about ppl going around stabbing ppl with infected need les and ever since this has been a major concern of mine cos surely this does happen!? but just lately, i dont know why. i have been really really bad with it!! i am paranoid about things i come into contact with in public places incase they have got need les hidden in. if i feel the slightest twinge of a pain i will be worrying ooh wot if it was a needle. i will either think maybe some1 could stab me with a needle or that ppl maybe leave them in places where u r likely to knock it. i went on a coach the other day and i felt a pain at the back of my head and i was thinking ooh wot if some1 hid a needle in the fabric of the seat!! i mean, how ridiculous is that??!! i felt the seat n everything!! and about a year ago i went to a party in a bar and when i got out i noticed my foot was bleeding n when i washed the blood off there was two tiny dots where the blood had been coming from n i was thinking wahat if someone had left a needle on the floor and that had stabbed me or something!! and i still worry about it to this day!! everytime i do feel these tiny little twinges or pains i examine the area and there is never usually blood there or anything, but i will still tell myself that u cud prob get infected even without the wound bleeding!! so now my fear of needles is worse and i am worrying myself sick over these things, which i am quite sure r totally irrational, well i hope they r anyway!!!!!!!