Life is indeed meaningful, but now....! - HIV Prevention Message Board

joshua123 · 12-06-2004, 05:50 AM

I am so stress up with all the symptoms even though, I donno whether I am infected all not...but I am haviing a very bad time right now! I wish i know the answer now instead of waiting for another 19 days for the antibodies to develop. Also, I did a CD4 check, do u think it is ok to check it now eventhough they couldn't find any HIV so far. Anyway, I am going to have the answer by tomorrow and I am very curious....and anxious! I feel like killing myself while waiting for it....WWhatt if I have....!!! So stressful....

Heavensent102 · 12-06-2004, 05:58 PM

Unless you nkow that you have unprotected sex with a girl/guy that you nkow for sure is HIV posotive STOP WORRING. Even if you did have sex you would ahve to have an open cut on your penis for the virus to get into the bloodstrem. So your chances are very low to none! Worring and making yuorself stressed out will NOT change your results, you either have it or you dont. And chances are you dont so dont stress over nothing. It is said that stressing yourself over it you can develope symptoms of it.... the brain is a powerfull tool!!! Please hun stop worring if your negative so far you prbably will be tommorow too. Just take this and learn from it!!! And oh yeah merry christmas!!!!!!! xoxxox heaven

joshua123 · 12-07-2004, 12:02 AM

Thanks Heavensent102. I just got my annual check up result and my lymphocyte count is below normal ( 46.40%) and WBC: 3500 cell/mm3 ... I don't know what it meant, but I do know that I am very weak and stress the whole time...and yes later today I will get my HIV result CD4...I donno what will happen.. Now I am feeling so down and sad! Feeling so horrible and only God can understand. Thanks anyway.
Joshua123

Heavensent102 · 12-07-2004, 05:03 PM

Well actualy like you I thought that I had it about 6 months ago now. I conveinced myself... thniking about it every second.. crying a few times a day, wishing hoping praying anything that I thought would help. I thuoght that I ahd it because well I was raped and the guy was known to get around with all these dirty girls.. and he used needles... I was very scared!!! very! Very! Trust me I know how you are feeling. But worrying is not good for you at all. Can I ask you why you are so worried... do you nkow the girl/guy had hiv?

joshua123 · 12-08-2004, 01:05 AM

Dear Heavensent102, I am vey worried. But I need to pray and trust in God for the best. Anyway, you can read my strong on the board title "PLS help!!" Everything is in there. I hope the result will be fine...learning to trust in God every moment now. It is not easy but slowly it will be fine. The test will be out on Thursday, hope that everything go well.