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I am 10 weeks pregnant and as part of the prenatal blood screening, I opted for an HIV test. I've always been very fearful of having this test done and I do believe I have finally figured out why. I don't think the majority of us are ready to face our mortality. Which is quiet strange really since we all know that death is the ultimate outcome. I think when having the HIV test done, these are things we ponder that we otherwise would not.

It's impossible to NOT be anxious. I was pretty crazy when I was younger but typically safe. More than anything I am suddenly terrified of the status of an ex. We dated for two years and did not use protection. While he said he never participated in any high risk behavior, he lied about other things, so... Anyhow, I guess it is what it is at this point and it is in the best interest of all involved that I know the results. I'm not even sure why I'm posting, but I am. Cross your fingers for me!