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Hello everyone - a blast from the past!!

I haven't posted about this sooner as have been simply too ashamed of myself and embarrassed. You might remember some time back I posted concerned about an encounter I'd had. Well, I got the all clear at 3 months, then got stressed again at 5months, so got tested again at 6months.

All clear!

Never again I told myself. Never ever ever. SO then I go and have an unprotected receptive oral encounter with my ex. I guess the fact that I had previously been in a long term relationship with this person lowered my guard. But no excuse I know, and I regret it immensely.

No biggy I thought, everyone's at it with oral (!) and the risk is small. Until one week later I get a cough and lose my voice. Then after three weeks I get what seems to be a corker of a mouth ulcer which pretty much prevents all eating for three days.

So now, one month post exposure, it's all cleared up. But then it would, wouldn't it.. as you can imagine I'm self-diagnosing every symptom under the sun. My ex assures me the only risks they've taken are oral, so I tell msyelf that I'd have to be pretty unlucky for him to contract it orally and then pass it on to myself orally. But then it also transpires that since we've been apart there's been an indulgence in substances that can only be described as far more toxic than alcohol - so how far can ones trust go?

I don;t really know why I'm bashing all this out... I guess I know the score. My ex is willing to go for a check up, which reassures me - and hopefully if he comes back ok I'll be able to relax a little. Until then, roll on more sleepless nights!

Good luck to everyone else going throught the agonising pre-test wait!!

Fabulous (as always)