anotherscrd1

Like many who post, I am a hetero-male who had an encounter that I have regretted now everyday, all day, for the past three months. I am now at 13 weeks and am scared to death when I do and get test.

3 months ago I went to an "asian massage parlor". During sex she noticed that the condom had broke (I remembered it being in tact shortly before) and replaced it with a new one. I know it doesn't matter much, but I don't think that the exposure was long. I went to my doctor the next week and explained what happened and he said that he thought that my risk was very low. Overall I have felt fine, except for about a month after "I think" that my lymph nodes were swollen. However, I ted to carry stress in my shoulders and it felt that everywhere from my neck to the inside of my colar bone and arpits were inflamed. Of course I keep touching and prodding around everyday. I am a smoker, and even think that the cigarettes taste very differently, but I haven't noticed any thrush in my mouth.

I am married, and have learned a valuable lesson, but I am so scared of what may come. Since my exposure I have not had sex with my wife, I couldn't possibly imagine exposing her if I have gotten HIV. I also haven't been able to talk to anyone. I have been reeding all of your posts which has been a big help to me, but it has taken this long to build up the courage to post. The internet can be a big help, but I wonder if I would have felt any of these syptoms if I hadn't looked on the net for them. I have realized how very real AIDS is now, but hope that I don't have to experience it first hand. I just needed to get this off of my chest. I am scared!