curiousNworried

Ok, this is how my story goes, I gave oral sex way back when a few months ago, it was oral sex without ejaculation, I was so ashamed of myself and the thought that I had HIV scared me so much, that I assumed I had it. I was so worried within 3 days of that incident I turned back to being a bulimic, I was not a bulimic for awhile since that. I thought my abdominal pain and fatigue were from ARS symptoms even though it was a 4 days after I gave my ex boyfriend head. My anxiety took control of me, it ruined my summer. I was to scared to even go to the doctor. I had a persistent pain in my upper right abdomin, well it turned out to be my gall bladder. Five years of bulimia caused it harm when it came to contracting which would result in pain after greasy meals. Once I started dating men I quit being bulimic and I even went to the dentist and said my oral health was in fantastic shape which realived me since I was worried that at that time 4 years of bulimia ****ed up my teeth and gums and what not, however, my dentist told me he wished all his patients had a mouth as mine. There was however a dark period once I broke up with my second ex, I became bulimic again and that continued on for 5 months and then I started dating my third boyfriend and stoped bulimia tell a few days after I gave him head and we broke up. However once afterwards, I started getting abdominal pains after meal, that was it, no nausea or fever or whatever, just that pain, I went to the doctor and they did blood, kideny and lever tests. Blood tests were done, liver tests were done, kidney tests were done and they all came back normal. My ex even reassurd me he was negative and that he was tested. My ex always has sex with a condom anyways from what he says. And upon reaseach ARS symptoms don't come on that quickly. But that does ease me up, no, since I go back 10 months into the past into my last boyfriend who I gave head to twice and once again without ejaculation. I don't really think there was much precum, since when I was done giving sucking him, it took him 5 minutes for him for him to jerk off. However, once I gave him head, about 5 weeks later I got an annoying flemmy caugh, which eventually developed into walking pneumonia. Now my head is thinking, OMG, it is ARS. Then upon research I find out walking pneumonia is not an ARS symptom. I didn't have a fever or anything. I was a smoker, and geneticly my mom develops walking pneumonia frequently because of her lungs are not that strong since of asthma and second hand smoke.

My sexual history goes like this

1st boyfriend was over a year and a half ago. We had anal sex and always with a condom. I was the receptive bottom. He has been tested and he is negative.

2 nd boyfriend. 2 incidents of oral sex without ejaculation. 5 weeks after I gave him head, I got walking pneumonia. Haven't talked or heard from him in awhile.

3rd boyfriend. 3 incidents of oral sex without ejaculation.

It is odd, I would go to the computer and type in my symptoms trying to diagnose myself with a disease I don't want to have even though my risk is low.

I have devoted so much time and energy to looking for symptoms and trying to diagnose myself online. It is pathetic. I am going to be tested next week though. I want to end this nightmare, I had worrying am I or am I not.

Honestly, what do you guys think my chances of having HIV are?

I am getting tested next week and from there we will see what happens.