No where to turn - HIV Prevention Message Board

07-17-2003, 11:25 AM

I am at the end of my rope. Here is my story:
I met a guy and we began to become intimate. I am 18 and he is 24. I am a male by the way. we began by him performing oral sex on me. the next time I met him he tried to enter my rectum with his penis, but I didn't let him. He then inserted my penis into his rectum for about 10 seconds. I pulled it out when I realized what was going on and didn't continue. We then masturbated to ejaculation. All of this was unprotected. I don't know his status but wanting to have unprotected sex isn't a good sign and I am really to the point that I don't know what to do. I know that there is of course a chance that I could be infected, but should this be ruining every aspect of my life. I truly have no one to talk to and I am hoping that you will take the time to answer me. I am very scared that I am positive or what I might do before I find out. I asked his status and he told me that he was negative, but he couldn't tell me when he tested. He also told me that he usually doesn't use condoms. He told me allof this afterward, my GOD what if he were positive?

jessica123456 · 07-17-2003, 12:48 PM

Relax...I understand this could be an issue that could affect your entire life, but you don't even know yet. I agree that you shouldn't have unprotected sex with this man, at least until both of you are tested. If he doesn't agree to this, then you don't have to sleep with him. If he has any respect for you and both of your guys' health then he'll get tested. I hope this helped a little.

07-17-2003, 02:55 PM

I just don't know the true risks with the experience I had. I can try to think logically that it was a very brief time, but I still think that if it is going to happen to someone, it will be me. Is there a chance I will be ok? I have already begun thinking about how I will end my life when I get the results.

normorcrazy · 07-17-2003, 04:03 PM

Let me just say, you know you are at risk, however, that is no reason to already be giving up. You said it yourself...you don't know his status. Don't assume the worse. Get tested at the appropriate times, being as this is the only way to know for sure.

Also, even if he or you for that matter, ended up positive it is far from the end of the world. That is no reason to give in to the disease. If you think about it HIV is like a heart condition or cancer. You have to take meds probably for the rest of your life and live a more cautious life, but you can do it if you have the will power. Just ask my best friend...she's been positive for almost 7 years, has 2 beautiful children, works full time and goes to school full time. She's happier than she's ever been. The only way you lose to HIV is if you give up. Remember...you are your only strength. If you remember that you can concur all.

Please keep us posted on your status and know that people really do care!!!!

07-17-2003, 04:18 PM

I just need to know the risks. I know there is a risk, but it was only about 10 seconds. Is it likely that I could be infected. I just want real advice.