Am I just being paranoid?
I just want to know if I am just being paranoid or if I am truly at risk for HIV. I'm gay and I know that puts me up into the HIGH risk category for catching HIV and I really don't want to end up with it due to my stupid mistakes.
I got tested negative a couple months ago after 3 months of not being with anyone. The last couple weeks I've been vacationing and over tipping the elbow, and I end up with a different guy from the bars every night. I've been with I think 6 guys in the last 2 weeks. (Disgusting I know)
Here are all the activities I engaged in: Unprotected oral sex (both ways), Deep kissing with all of them, Protected insertive anal sex, and in two cases the guys pushed their penises against my anus really hard to the point where I'm not sure if I was penetrated or not. It felt good so I didn't stop them but I know they didn't go inside.
My concern is what if there was a small hole in one of the condoms or something? (I checked ALL of the condoms the morning after each incident and it appears they didn't break) Another concern I have is what if the tip of the guys penises went past the opening of my anus maybe just a little bit and what if they had precum?
My mind is just filled with what ifs and after this crazy last couple of weeks I'm never having sex again.. period. But I just want to know if I'm safe or I should seek testing soon? Thanks in advance for your time