Re: Absolute paranoia oral sex HIV hysterical
Buddy after you receive what will inevitably be a negative result tomorrow I advise you sit down and review this entire thread. Read you own words of hysteria and panic and learn from them. As Joggen rightly points out you are setting out a world of pain and torture for yourself.
HV is not you problem, your complete lack of understanding of it is. It is this lack of understanding that is fuelling, needlessly, your over reactions. To learn from this, you should at the very least make a real effort to gain a far better understanding. It is actually quite sad and disturbing that in the year 2012 when HIV has been around for the last 30 years that still somebody can have such a fundamental misconception and misunderstanding of it. I would actually advise you to seek professional education and there is no better place to start than to ask the people who test you.
There is no need to wish you luck with your test, it will be negative. All I can now advise you are that afterwards you really do make a far greater effort to learn about something you clearly do not grasp and at this moment seem unwilling or unable to understand.