My two hour disaster
I've been turning this over in my mind since the day after - and found so much help and reassurance on this forum. However, I'm still turning it over - so going to post my story, hopefully telling someone will help make me feel a bit better about it all.
It all happened one very drunken night (actually early one drunken morning after a drunken night) in Hong Kong on a boys weekend. Rather than do the sensible thing and go home after the last bar, I wandered into a girl bar.
I remember my thinking - I've got one or two beers left in me, I'll nip in and have one - speak to some girls and go home. How nieve.
I was plastered - and the "mumma" of the bar knew it. Before I knew it, she had my wallet and was funding a lap dance. But this was no ordinary lap dance - it was very very full on.
Probably 10 mins later, "mumma" announced she was closing and basically forced me to pay a ridiculous amount of cash to take one of the girls out of the bar for a few hours. My thinking - just do it and get to feck out of there. The girl was really nice, I had no intention of doing anything sexual - maybe just go and get another drink somewhere.
No-where was open, I had paid a small fortune for this chick's company for two hours - so agreed she could come back to my hotel. This was my second mistake.
The first thing I remember she did was pull out a packet of condoms - to which I remember saying (and laughing) - oh no, no noooooo - we ain't having sex!! I was quite clear on that.
She then suggested we take a shower - which we did. I sort of remember that - but really don't remember anything else. I passed out for two hours. She must have woken me up before she left - giving me a hand job on the way out.
That's all I remember. A very intimate lap dance (with possible rubbing skin on skin, maybe?), some kissing and a hand job.
I'm worried sick about anything else that might have happened that I can't remember. Why why why do these things!!!
I'm 99.9% certain there was no intercourse - I wouldn't even let her give me a blow job (I remember that coming up). But there is a tiny part of me that's working overtime - what else could have happened that I don't remember.
We were both naked in bed - so if there was any kissing there is a real possibility of little snowboy rubbing against her bits. I'd say that would be the only issue - but I'm doing myself in over it!!!
Right - I do feel better for putting pen to paper! I had a full sexual health test today and will get the results early next week. Time will tell!!
Thanks for listening!