depressedinpain

I am a 22yo bi male , 4 years ago i had unprotected sex after i felt we were serious in the relationship , it is almost 5 years later and I randomly thought of the person too see how she was doing and searched the name on facebook and saw she died from hiv! , i immidietly dropped to the floor in tears for fear that i am infected and in pain that she told me she was clean to my face , some facts about the encounter years ago are that I am a top , i did not preform any sexual acts on her other than i inserted unprotectedly to her rectum and only had sexual contact with her that one time. there was no blood or pain and i am also circumcised.

It is 5 years later and I have not had a single symptom or even gotten a cold or lost weight only gained weight. I was reading and am surprised that people are saying that the risk is fairly low for a top male and circumcised like 1 in 1000 encounters usually contract, I am going to get tested asap but i would still like to get opinions , I know this was stupid of me I was young and dumb. I had gotten tested a year after the encounter for regular stds and came back clean. my girlfriend of the last 2 years accidently poked herself with a needle a couple months ago so she was given hiv tests and came back clean as well and we have been having sex for 2 years unprotected and faithful.

I really appreciate all you that have read this and are helping you have no clue the stress and feelings i am going through at this moment. =( any words or facts that can help relieve me of passing out of anxiety and fear will really help me you have no clue.