Waiting for test results and going out of my mind please help!
I am a 30 year old woman
I finally bit the bullet today and went for an HIV test. My fears all started 9 years ago, when I was a student and a bit reckless on a few occasions (sex without condoms). One of them gave me chlamydia and that was my wake up call! I had a screening done then for everythign other than HIV but I keep thinking, if this person had chlamydia, maybe they had HIV too?
So I have been with my husband for 8.5 years and we are monogamous. But recently my fears have resurfaced, because we started trying for a baby and I knew if I got pregnant the doctors would do a text as par for the course. I started getting more and more anxious, and recently I have not been sleeping, waking up sweating and then convinced I have night sweats, I have a rash which I am now convinced is related to HIV/AIDS (although my doctor says it is just dry skin with a slight bacterial infection but it looks like some of the images I have googled.)
I have an underactive thyroid and as such have full blood tests quite regularly; the doctor says my white blood cells and lymphocytes are totally normal, so he doesn't think there is anything to worry about. But I can't help it. Since doing the test first thing this morning I have not been able to eat and every inner twinge is making me nervous. I am terrified. How will I get through 10 days??
I am aware I sound a bit OTT about this, but I can't shake it. I know no one call tell me whether i have it or not, but maybe some reassurance or someone with similar anxieites can share so I don't feel like such a manic as my husband and best friend seem to think I am.