Yes, I feel like that sometimes. I know it doesn't help, but yes I do feel like that.
I feel like if I felt more attractive than it wouldn't matter as much, and I might even get an opportunity to, and where I'd want to, explain to someone about it.
But even if I did get the opportunity, there's a chance that I might just hold off, and forego any chance of the relationship anyway: classic fear of intimacy I guess.
Still I hope that someday I will find someone. It saddens me to think I should spend my whole young life searching, but it's my hope.
I know I should try to focus on other things in my life, but it's tough when it seems like everyone else feels good about themselves, and are hooking up.
I like myself okay, but there's things about myself that I'd like to do something about to improve ( HPV is one of them, even though it seems like such a blind fight ).
Today is my birthday. I am visiting with my parents today.