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cath1024 · 04-10-2006, 07:40 AM

Hi ladies,

Ok my story is a little strange and its only been since i had my 2nd baby last April.

Since the birth of my daughter all I am doing is worrying about one thing after another ... first i was determinded i had bowel cancer because of some blood in my stool ... demanded a colonoscopy which turned out clear.

Then i diagnosed myself with nasal cancer because i couldnt get rid of bloody phlem build up in my nose and back of my throat .... saw a ENT specialist and all is completely fine.

Well now after 10 yrs my thought have came back to my cervical problems i had .... i was diagnosed with HVP warts and moderate-severe dysplasia ... my reg gyn did the coposcopy, cone biopsy and cyrotherapy (freezing)

After that i remember her sending me to a another specialist who i guess was higher then her because i do remember her saying she didnt want to remove any more of my cervix and about something further up my canal and she wanted to have someone else have a look ... like i said this was about 10-12 yrs ago so things arnt the clearest to me aboiut remembering .... anyways i went to see the head specialist and he did something which may have been what you are all calling LEEP or i think it was a lazer probe ... is that the same as LEEP?

Anyways i remember going back every 3 months and then 6 months then not haveing to go back to him at all.

So i then just started having reg paps every year from then. My last PAP was June/2005 which was 6 weeks after the birth of my daughter.

As far as i know everything has been fine or im sure they would have contacted me right?

Ok so this brings me to where i am now .... there should be no reason for me to be panicking over all this all of a sudden should there be?
My last pap was done June/05 so not even a year ago but the past few days im sitting here very stressed and having anxiety thinking that i have cerival cancer

My family dr had given me a RX for Ativan to help relax me when i was freaking out about the bowel and throat episodes ... so the only thing keeping me sane right now is the ativans i take 1 or 2 times a day for the anxiety.

So i called my gyn who delievered my daughter and asked to make an appt for my PAP and she said my last one was June 8 so she wouldnt book it until June 14 grrrrrrrr .... so then i call my family dr and ask to book one and she says the dr does them with a physical and needs a longer time slot so it wouldntbe until May 5 grrrrr ..... i really wanted to get in today becasue the results take awhile to come back!

Im sorry this is a longgg post but do you guys think im worrying over nothing if all paps have been fine since back then?

Im terrrified im full of abnormal cells right now and im so stressed over it!

Please anyone offer some advice to calm my fears .

Thanks to all of you
Cathy

Timber · 04-10-2006, 09:57 AM

LEEP and laser aren't the same, but they are both methods used to treat dysplasia. If you haven't had dysplasia for 10 years and all of your Paps have been normal since then, then you have nothing to worry about. They cured you, and although dysplasia can't come back, it's very slow growing, so if you had dysplasia that had already progressed to cancer, your Pap would have been abnormal last year. The reason they only do Paps once a year is because dysplasia grows so slowly that a year is plenty of time to catch it before it becomes severe.

Why are you fixating on cervical cancer in particular? Are you having any symptoms of cervical cancer? I don't think you have anything to worry about. You're doing everything you're supposed to by getting your smears every year. In women who have regular Paps, invasive cervical cancer can be prevented in just about all cases.

cath1024 · 04-10-2006, 10:25 AM

Hi Timber and thanks for your reply ... I didnt know Dysplasia could be cured ... I was about 23-25 yrs old when I started going thru all of this stuff and i wish i would have paid more attention to exactly what they told me ... im 36 now and seem to be more knowledgeable about eveything from when i was younger and not really paying attention.

Im not really sure why im so worried about this ... like i said i never even thought about it the past years until now

And since i started thinking about it im thinking Oh No maybe they missed some bad cells in my past pap smears and now they have gotten realy bad and im full of cancer ... My dr diagnosed me with PP Depression after my daughter and said all of this cancer of the bowel and throat was all part of it ... she put me on some antidepressants to try and settle me down but it just seems like i get thru one thing realize im fine and i move onto another thing like now the dysplasia thing is all back on my mind.

So you said dysplasia can be cured forever? And what about HPV how would i know if i still had that? Can the dysplasia come back again?
So you think after 10 years if there was still any abnormal cells left from before or new ones they would have shown up on my last pap back in Jun/05?

Im just panicking here thinking the worst and i realy have no reason to do i?

Thanks again
Cathy

Timber · 04-10-2006, 10:51 AM

If abnormal cells had been left on your cervix 10 years ago, they would've been seen on your Pap long ago. If you had dysplasia left from 10 years ago, it would've progressed by now and become detectable.

Dysplasia can be cured with one treatment in 85-90% of cases. Most people who have their dysplasia treated never get it again. And dysplasia can be prevented from becoming cancer in just about all cases. Dysplasia can recur, but it doesn't usually. Regarding HPV, my gynecologist tells me that it used to be thought that HPV was with you for life, but she said that the most recent evidence is showing that your body will fight it off after a few years.

It really does sound more like you have an anxiety disorder, rather than cancer. And it sounds like you kind of know that, too, since you say that after you get over one fear, you pick up another. Do you visit the anxiety board at healthboards? You might be relieved to find other people who are exactly like you - very fearful about things like cancer. I can get very phobic about my health as well, so I know how captivating the worry cycle is.

If you spend a lot of your time in fear, you should definitely find a great psychologist to work with. You're still so young, and you should be able to enjoy your life and your baby without being distracting by anxiety all the time. Good luck.

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