Re: Does the hurt from HPV ever go away?
I was raped my first semester at college, he gave me 2 types of HPV. I'm still so ashamed.
It's been almost a year, but I still have this deep seated self loathing that won't go away.
I feel so dirty. I'm in a very serious relationship with a great guy, he loves me very much, and we were sexually active when I found out. He doesn't really care at all, and I found out that although 2000 women die of HPV a year, they're women who are generally poor, and can't afford regular papsmear and medical treatment. My Gyno told me it takes 5-10 years to develop cancer. I also had received the Gardisil vacination when I contracted HPV. It's a little bit of a joke that it only prevents 4 of 100 types of HPV, but I'm glad it's available.
I hope this information helps anyone who needs it. I'm glad to know that I'm not alone in my ridiculously low self esteem issues.
I'm extremely healthy, I run half marathons, I don't smoke, so I'm not really worried about it health wise, I just feel so dirty and guilty.
The only thing regret does is hurt, so I know I've got to move past this.