handler45

Hello, everyone.

I am new to this forum, but I am not new to HPV. I am wondering if anyone has had a similar experience.

In 2007, I was diagnosed with HPV. Subsequent testing, including 2 colposcopies and several PAPs revealed LSIL/CIN I. It has been almost 5 years since my initial diagnosis, and I cannot seem to shake my HPV infection, nor can I manage to have one normal pap smear.

A couple of months ago, I was so distraught and depressed that I had a complete meltdown in my Dr.'s office. I was almost taken to the ER.

For many of my friends, this infection has gone away, but it is persisting for me and I can't seem to shake it. For the last few months, I have tried taking tons of folic acid as well as a good multivitamin, but I am feeling discouraged that this will never go away and that colposcopies, biopsies, LEEPs, and ultimately a hysterectomy will be in my future. If HPV never clears out of my system, won't it always wreak havoc on my organs?

I am terrified, and most days I find it difficult to function. I know that I am due for another colpo at some point in the future, and my doctor told me that the longer I have persistent LSIL and CIN I, the less of a chance I have to clear the virus.

I am healthy; I eat really well and exercise; I do not drink (at all) and have never had a cigarette. Has anyone else had persistent low-grade cervical tests? The worst part about this is I am getting married in June to a wonderful, supportive, and caring man who loves me (and is only the second partner I've ever had in my entire life), and I can't help but think that this is going to RUIN our marriage and our life together.

Please help me.