shucks

Here is my story...I noticed something that did not belong on my backdoor area, and I never had sex in that department (exit only), and my last time haveing sex was about a year ago. It got to the point where it was uncomfortable to go to the bathroom.....I went to the doctors and the doctor set me an appointment (christmas eve) with the dermontologist. I went and seen her, and they gave me a shot to numb it and clipped it off (as if it was no biggie....OUCH). At first they said, "it could be a tab from a hemorhoid or a wart...I wasnt sure what she was talking about. I did some reading on both if I had to choose of which I would rather have it would be the tab/hemmorhoid (I read alot of horrid stories about hpv/genital warts). After spending christmas day and weekend with a sore buttI finally found out today what my test results were.
Sad to say that I have HPV/genital warts. Tonight I am going to see an ob gyn to make sure that there are no growing warts inside me.
I was wondering if anybody who has this to share with me and maybe help me through this. How do you deal with it. I have read that a person did 100 sergeories within a year, and spends most of their time with a raw butt, because of the chemical burns. I am so scard...I have been so cautios and clean, but my ex was a freaking cheat (I did break up with him when I found out of course, but apparently it was too late). I didnt ask for this, but fell victum and I have it, and somehow I have to learn to deal with it (I dont have any other choice....do I?). I am in hope to find someone to talk to. I am a single mom, and I have to pretend that everthing is all ok (for their sake), but I feel that I have to talk to someone or I will burst in tears.
I just hope that is the ONLY bad news I hear (I have taken all the other tests HIV, hepatise, solphis..ect ect the whole 9 yards these test wont come in for another week).........
I hope someone will be able to shed some light my way...thanks.