Re: Really bad case of hypochondriasis (really long I'm sorry- REALLY NEED HELP)
I have thought I had several different diseases and syndromes before, including PCOS, and I always actually do have symptoms. The symptoms may be psychosomatic, but feel or look real to me. When I thought that I had PCOS, I actually got acne and gained weight. I made my gyn do an ultrasound and he saw nothing. I was convinced that he made a mistake or that the cysts were too small for him to see. Just to reassure you, PCOS is a large category and so difficult to diagnose. You don't even have to have ovarian cysts to call yourself PCOS. So, even if you did have it, there is little you can do about it. They have medications that somewhat treat the bothersome symptoms like weight gain, acne and hirsutism but they don't work that well and you don't have bothersome symptoms anyway. Try and forget the PCOS because there is really nothing to be gained by being reassured that you have it. I can relate though - it is driving me BONKERS, I always have something wrong, and usually something that there is no cure for. If I told you about my latest obsession, you'd think I was really off the wall. I may post about it, I don't know yet, it is REALLY embarrassing.
Relax and take care of yourself. Try to see a good therapist (despite your lack of success with them in the past) because when your obsession w/; PCOS is over, if you are anything like me, it'll be something else.