Well as some may know Ive been recently posting more and more frequently on here
probably made a bad mistake when I decided to read all through the cancer forums and about brain tumors! Now Im freaked out even more. And schizophrenia too.
One of the symptoms of schizophrenia is lack of motivation, which is definitely something I have and also withdrawl from social situations (then again I withdrawl because I get panicky now-a-days when I never did before).
Then I read symptoms of brain tumors and they listed:
Headaches that tend to be worse in the morning and ease during the day,
Seizures (convulsions),
Nausea or vomiting,
Weakness or loss of feeling in the arms or legs,
Stumbling or lack of coordination in walking (ataxic gait),
Abnormal eye movements or changes in vision,
Drowsiness,
Changes in personality or memory, and
Changes in speech
The nausea I have but I have been increasingly stressed and anxious lately (the number of recent posts Ive posted tell this!) The weakness in arms or legs is a feeling Ive had too, mostly when panicky though. When the anxiety is real bad I feel really weird walking like at any moment I could just fall (though I havent). Ive had headaches behind my eyes (pressure) they seem to only be when Im trying to focus on far away things, and my eyes feel like theyre crossing sometimes too (not that they cross but like theyre trying to) but from my first eye doctor appointment I had about a week ago I have astigmatism in my left eye, but I dont know if thats the sensation you get with it? Not to mention it feels like my eyes are bouncing (not like vision wise but like things are going fast possibly? Or just a little shaky?) My personality has obviously been really paranoid and anxious and panicky lately, dont know if thats much of a change or not. And it feels like I wouldnt be able to remember something (feeling disassociative) but if I think specifically I can so I dont know if that counts as memory loss. And when Im nervous its harder for me to talk.
Blah I need some comfort or something, this is just getting really hectic. Not to mention then also fearing "fluid on the brain" etc, etc, etc. Is this completely abnormal for anxiety/panic disorder or is this how it goes? I honestly dont know what to think.
