So lately everyone in my family has been calling me a hypochondriac. Since January I have gone to the ER about 6 times. I don't have a primary care physician so ER is my only option. I have no insurance and up until this year I stayed away from even ER's because I didn't want the collection agencies after me. I am always totally convinced that something is wrong with me. And I feel every single ache, pain etc in my body. I am constantly worried that the pains in my head are tumors or i'm going to have an aneurysm or something, that any pain I feel in my chest means i'm going to have a heart attack or something is wrong with my lungs. I'm convinced I have cancer or some other horrible disease. For the last month I have had this almost constant pain in my right leg that won't go away so I automatically think blood clot. And it's like I tell my mother...everyone says its all in my head yeah well what about the time I don't worry and it really is something bad or how do they know anything going on with me right now isn't bad? The last time I went to the ER was about 5 weeks ago. All tests came back fine. They did an EKG, abdominal cat scan with contrast, front chest x-ray and blood work. Says kidneys, liver, heart blood work was fine. Said the D dimmer test(not sure on spelling) that tests for blood clots was fine everything was fine. Back in March I had a head CT no contrast done. Came back fine they said. But i'm still freaked out. I still don't feel things are fine. And it didn't help at all that the ER doc last time I was in says right before I leave that now if anything changes or you still don't feel right come right back because things can change in an instant. Thanks yeah that helped my anxiety etc so much! I am just so tired of always having anxiety attacks and worrying and people telling me that oh all your pains etc are all in your head. I do have real medical needs and concerns it's not all in my head! There's times I just sit there and cry because I don't know if I should be more worried and go back to the ER or if i'm just being crazy.
I'm beginning to think maybe I am a hypochondriac on top of my anxiety disorder. But I still feel that some of my medical concerns are not just in my head. Should I be more concerned or chock it up to it's all in my head.