So lately everyone in my family has been calling me a hypochondriac. Since January I have gone to the ER about 6 times. I don't have a primary care physician so ER is my only option. I have no insurance and up until this year I stayed away from even ER's because I didn't want the collection agencies after me. I am always totally convinced that something is wrong with me. And I feel every single ache, pain etc in my body. I am constantly worried that the pains in my head are tumors or i'm going to have an aneurysm or something, that any pain I feel in my chest means i'm going to have a heart attack or something is wrong with my lungs. I'm convinced I have cancer or some other horrible disease. For the last month I have had this almost constant pain in my right leg that won't go away so I automatically think blood clot. And it's like I tell my mother...everyone says its all in my head yeah well what about the time I don't worry and it really is something bad or how do they know anything going on with me right now isn't bad? The last time I went to the ER was about 5 weeks ago. All tests came back fine. They did an EKG, abdominal cat scan with contrast, front chest x-ray and blood work. Says kidneys, liver, heart blood work was fine. Said the D dimmer test(not sure on spelling) that tests for blood clots was fine everything was fine. Back in March I had a head CT no contrast done. Came back fine they said. But i'm still freaked out. I still don't feel things are fine. And it didn't help at all that the ER doc last time I was in says right before I leave that now if anything changes or you still don't feel right come right back because things can change in an instant. Thanks yeah that helped my anxiety etc so much! I am just so tired of always having anxiety attacks and worrying and people telling me that oh all your pains etc are all in your head. I do have real medical needs and concerns it's not all in my head! There's times I just sit there and cry because I don't know if I should be more worried and go back to the ER or if i'm just being crazy. I'm beginning to think maybe I am a hypochondriac on top of my anxiety disorder. But I still feel that some of my medical concerns are not just in my head. Should I be more concerned or chock it up to it's all in my head.
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you don't seem to be handling it all that badly, I've been to the ER for heart problems 3 times in the last 4 days because I'm worried about my heart and I'm 23. The first time I went I went because of feeling dizzy off balance and a weird feeling of doom. So they did an ecg and the nurse asked me if I was having any chest pains in a kind of frantic voice, I said no and then I was put ahead of the people waiting onto a bed. 10 hours later I found out that the first doctor that was supposed to see me never did and they messed up. The second doctor told me she didn't look at my ecg or blood work but that I probably have vertigo. I didn't push it any furtyher but after going home I had wished she would have looked at the ecg and looked up abnormal ecg patterns on the internet and the ones I saw as abnormal looked a lot like the one i saw come out of the printer. So I went back to the er with "chest pain" to try to get a doctor to look at the ecg thinking it might have been a silent heart attack or soemthing else. Anyways this story doesn't end here but I won't bore you with any more details but the point is I think you are handling your anxieties quite well and if you feel you should go to the ER you should just go and not feel embarassed about going because if nothing else it will reassure you nothing is wrong, not quite so much so in my case but at least give you a bit of condolence. Besides, it's not always so easy just to "chalk it up to being in your head" like you can just do that like you're ordering a pizza. If I were you I would just go, it beats sitting at home and stressing
maybe you should contact a local mental health program. so that you can talk to a therapist or see a shrink. alot of local programs work on a sliding scale and can provide help with the cost of meds. good luck.
Mjayster.....If I were to go to the ER every time I wanted to or felt I needed to I think they would have to set me up my own personal room there lol it really is embarrassing for me to go there especially with how much I owe them now from the other visits. And sometimes going in doesn't fully help either. They will say everything looks good and that helps some but then I will start freaking out that they missed something or should have tested something else. Thank you though for saying you think I'm handling things well because to me I don't feel I am. I am driving my family and myself crazy. Lately I have had to take more of my Lorazepam. Sometimes once a day instead of once in awhile like before. And these panic attacks if that's what they are scare me. I hate feeling this way.
And to dismama, I have an appointment set up with the local mental health clinic but they won't be able to get me in till Oct. and that's just for the assessment to see if they will accept me there etc.
Go see a mental health specialist.. They make a world of difference. If you get the proper treatment your anxiety should go away for the most part and your hypochondria will significantly reduce due to the fact that stress and anxiety can cause you to feel certain pains all over your body