I have contamination OCD concerning diseases, diseases that are not even contagious. There is a woman in my church who has a brain tumor and is now paralyzed on one side. I am afraid to go near her for fear of becoming contaminated. One week I was about 4 feet away from her and now I am afraid to wear the clothes I had on at that time. I in my mind know I cannot truly catch a brain tumor from another person, and I feel so guilty about thinking even thinking it, but yet I get so scared. I am scared of things that even touch the jacket or that I may have touched. I drove home in my car that day and it never occurred to me that I was contaminated but after I was home for a few hours I started obsessing on it and my fear grew. I have the blazer that I had on that day and the pants hanging in my closet and I will not open the door on that side of my closet. I see other people talking to her, helping her and hugging her. By now, everyone in my church would have a brain tumor and yet I cannot get rid of this obsession. I wash clothes over and over that I think I may have touched. I am on 120 mg of Cymbalta and 1 mg of Ativan a day and just want to get back to my normal self.
Anyone have any hints. I acquired these fears when I was working in a Microbiology lab. I just can't take it any longer.